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You Know A Writer Has To Read, Right?

I love to read and I place my mind in a lot of different areas. Being a writer almost always means that you have to be a heavy reader, how else can you perfect your craft? So who was the winner of an autographed copy of The Rolexxx Club, an upcoming release by Meta Smith? Well, me of course! After reading her excerpt and entering the contest a while ago, I found out today that I actually won, but that's not it... As I'm up late last night working, I find an email from PR @ Simon & Schuster asking me if I would be interested in reviewing RM Johnson's newest novel, Do You Take This Woman? Mr. Johnson has a very interesting bio and I happily accepted to read his latest! Gosh, could they both arrive NOW already? LOL!

Keeping with the reading theme, I've been meaning to add my two cents to a few stories I've seen lately:

Self-Checkout? Just You Wait - The Line With No Cashier Has The Most Impatient Customers - I don't know about you guys, but I have such a love/hate relationship with self-checkout lines and this story only confirms that we're all in such a rush these days. I totally agree that the use of these lines can help to "avoid delays", but I've yet to see how it prevents human interaction as I've always seem to find myself with the person who needs help, but acts as though they don't! I really don't get that... If you need help, just ask. Standing by the machine with the screw face is not going to make it work nor will this...

In April, police in Texas charged a shopper with criminal mischief after he punched and shattered the screen of a checkout terminal that had frozen twice in the middle of his order.

The "Being A Black Man" Series within last Sunday's TWP edition ran the story, The Wrong Man, which recounts the story of Elias Fishburn of Maryland, who was wrongly arrested and jailed. This article had me in tears, but quite furious! I felt Mr. Fishburn's pain and anger as he told his story and my eyes spilled over...

As he was being processed, he felt a guard tug at his long dreadlocks, and cried out in protest when he felt hanks of his hair being snipped off to remove the tiny silver charms woven into the twisted strands. A doll-size pair of scissors entwined in his hair were considered a potential weapon? This particular humiliation touched a nerve. It had taken him years of meticulous care to grow locks like his, and now a stranger was blithely chopping away. Fishburne landed in the day room of the county jail in a sea of men, most of them young, most of them black. He sat with his back against the wall, trying to draw the calming breaths he had learned in yoga class, assuring himself this would be over any minute now.

And can you believe this....

When he sensed any tension rising in the crowded cellblocks, Fishburne retreated to the bathroom to brush his teeth. "It was the only place to get some peace," he remembers. Once, he approached the guards' desk to say he couldn't find his toothbrush. The response was quick and pitiless.

"You need to step away from the desk," he remembers being ordered. The guard was black. Fishburne tried to explain he just wanted a toothbrush. The order was bellowed again. A white guard quietly told Fishburne he'd see what he could do, Fishburne recalled, and later brought a toothbrush to his cell.

"I hate to say it, but I was treated more kindly by the two Caucasian guards than by any of the black guards," Fishburne says. Their disdain was palpable, as if being black were somehow more shameful. "It was like I was a disgrace," Fishburne says.

And my goodness, this took the cake...

Fishburne figured God was testing him, and he jokes bitterly now about how he wishes that test could have been in Palm Springs, but it was in Atlanta, where he remembers how a black female guard stood outside the cell at meal time and called inmates filthy names. When Fishburne didn't respond, she zeroed in. "You going to eat or what, nigger?" she demanded. The racial slur was the most common form of address, Fishburne said; that black guards were using it to address black inmates only made the humiliation worse. The transformation was complete: He was not Elias Fishburne, not Jarvis Tucker, not even a case number. Not a homeowner, not a hairdresser, not a good citizen living a worthy life. Nigger. That's who he was now.

All I can say is the more things change, the more they stay the same...

Although Everybody Hates Linda, I can say that I don't. Linda explains what all the fuss is about:
Everybody started hating Linda, apparently, when I published an article in the progressive magazine the American Prospect last December, saying that women who quit their jobs to stay home with their children were making a mistake. Worse, I said that the tasks of housekeeping and child rearing were not worthy of the full time and talents of intelligent and educated human beings. They do not require a great intellect, they are not honored and they do not involve risks and the rewards that risk brings. Oh, and by the way, where were the dads when all this household labor was being distributed? Maybe the thickest glass ceiling, I wrote, is at home.

Quite possibly, I could be truly among the minority in this discussion compared to what others are saying, but I find that there is some truths to what Linda speaks. I love my kids dearly and I find that being a stay-at-home mom for the past six months has helped to solidify our bond as well as their education, yet I want my sons to know the importance of having a job and running their own businesses. I'm going back to working outside the home because I enjoy having my own, but that makes me no better than those who choose to continue being at home. Simply put, who cares what Linda says? We all make our own individual choices when it comes to our families and as women, we should continue to support one another through these hard choices...

posted by Soulfull @ 9:39 PM , links to this post

The Tongue Can Be Your Worse Enemy.....

I can't take credit for these words below, but considering I surround myself with a lot of positive emails, notes, quotes, etc, I wanted to share another...

Your words, your dreams, and your thoughts have power to create conditions in your life. What you speak about, you can bring about. If you keep saying you can't stand your job, you might lose your job. If you keep saying you can't stand your body, your body can become sick. If you keep saying you can't stand your car, your car could be stolen or just stop operating. If you keep saying you're broke, guess what? You'll always be broke. If you keep saying you can't trust a man or trust a woman, you will always find someone in your life to hurt and betray you. If you keep saying you can't find a job, you will remain unemployed. If you keep saying you can't find someone to love you or believe in you, your very thought will attract more experiences to confirm your beliefs. If you keep talking about a divorce or break up in a relationship, then you might end up with it. Turn your thoughts and conversations around to be more positive and power packed with faith, hope, love and action. Don't be afraid to believe that you can have what you want and deserve. Watch your thoughts, they become words. Watch your words, they become actions. Watch your actions, they become habits. Watch your habits, they become character. Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.

posted by Soulfull @ 2:03 PM , links to this post

Hurricane Aid - Why Can't We Get It Right?

The Headline Reads: 'Breathtaking' Waste and Fraud in Hurricane Aid

This story really saddens me and although I've known about the mismanagement at FEMA and the American Red Cross, I am at a loss of words on this...

The $7.9 million spent to renovate the former Fort McClellan Army base in Anniston, Ala., included fixing up a welcome center, clinic and gymnasium, scrubbing away mold and installing a protective fence between the site and a nearby firing range. But when the doors finally opened, only about 10 people showed up each night, leading FEMA to shut down the shelter within one month.

The mobile homes, costing $34,500 each, were supposed to provide temporary housing to hurricane victims. But after Louisiana officials balked at installing them inland, FEMA had no use for them. Nearly half, or about 10,000, of the $860 million worth of units now sit at an airfield in Arkansas, where FEMA is paying $250,000 a month to store them.

The most recent audit came from the Government Accountability Office, which this month estimated that perhaps as much as 21 percent of the $6.3 billion given directly to victims might have been improperly distributed.

And something just isn't right here...

The most disturbing cases, said David R. Dugas, the United States attorney in Louisiana, who is leading a storm antifraud task force for the Justice Department, are those involving government officials accused of orchestrating elaborate scams.

One Louisiana Department of Labor clerk, Wayne P. Lawless, has been charged with issuing about 80 fraudulent disaster unemployment benefit cards in exchange for bribes of up to $300 per application. Mr. Lawless, a state contract worker, announced to one man he helped apply for hurricane benefits that he wanted to "get something out of it," the affidavit said. His lawyer did not respond to several messages left at his office and home for comment.

The nerve of some people! Granted there will always be snakes in the grass, but where is the oversight down there? I mean with a last name like "Lawless", it doesn't surprise me that he would commit fraud. LOL! Seriously though, this really depresses me. With this years' hurricane season, there's no telling what the future might bring and folks really need to think twice before they rob from the needy considering they might be the ones' in real need this year. You know, karma is a mutha....

posted by Soulfull @ 9:05 AM , links to this post

Just Running My Mouth...

The docs called me today to discuss the surgery on Monday and shit, they are scaring me. After completing my admissions survey, the question of, am I in good health, is making its third appearance in my mind? Other then my stress level being through the roof with all the things I'm trying to accomplish, I'm doing good. I'm looking forward to tonight though. I'm going to have some nice boob tube time tonight. They kids have had lunch, did their schooling, and I've started working on my finals, so hopefully I can sit myself down tonight with a nice blue raspberry martini and watch the BET Awards at 8. I like award shows and this year's show looks as though it is going to be quite interesting. I can't wait to see PRINCE! I hear he is going to close the show and who knows what Damon Wayans will do or say as the host... Hopefully nothing too embarrassing...

...Well, keeping in line with stuff that I like, I am a serious Disney world addict, so I make no apologies for this lengthy post about my favorite place in the world. Since I was maybe 6 years old, my parents made it a point to give my two sisters and I a summer treat before or after visiting my precious great grandparents in Georgia. We would pile up in the Ford Tempo (o, the 80s) and ride the 14-15 hours to GA and then it was onto creating memories with that mouse! From my childhood to my first trip away from the parents with my boyfriend, I've enjoyed hanging in Orlando. Man, I can remember my boyfriend's mom was lunching out that we were going to Florida with out "adult supervision". She called my parents' house the night we were leaving and pretty much rung me through the dryer, but it wasn't like we were 16 or something, please, we were both mature twenty-one year olds and besides we're married now. It sure wasn't any surprise that my honeymoon HAD to be in Orlando too. This time around, I did what any Disney lover would do... I bought a timeshare. Awe, they done missed me up now! Shoot, since our honeymoon, we've gone down there twice last year and boy does my heart flutter with the memories of turkey legs, screaming on the Tower of Terror, chasing down characters for autographs, fireworks, the craziness of International Dr., chilling on the monorail, character dining...

Goodness, I'm feeling misty-eyed, but don't worry folks, there is a cure... MY HOME MOVIES! You just can't come to the 'World' without the digital camcorder and if you do, you'll be sorry! That nostalgic monkey will jump on your back and ride you right out of your mind. Reminds me of spinning around in one of those teacups in Fantasyland...

Yup, a healthy dose of a few hours watching my DVR tapes sure does help to lessen my hunger pains but there's only one way to kill this feeling... Another visit with Mickey Mouse and all his friends!! Like Fred Sanford would say... I'm coming to join yah baby...
Once I wrap my head around a clear schedule, maybe next year I can enjoy some more time down there.... Shoot, hopefully we can do one of those behind the scenes tours they have which look really exciting and the cost isn't that bad...

posted by Soulfull @ 2:50 PM , links to this post

Who's In Your Company?

Received a great email today that I wanted to share with everybody. It talks about the natural transitions that people will have in and out of your life. As I read, it reminded me a lot of why I've chosen to live my life the way I do... As you read through, what comes to mind for you?

Peace & Blessings...

The Company You Keep

It Is Better To Be Alone, Than In The Wrong Company.
Tell me who your best friends are, and I will tell you who you are.
If you run with wolves, you will learn how to howl.
But, if you associate with eagles, you will learn how to soar to great
A mirror reflects a person's face, but what they are really like is shown
by the kind of friends he chooses.
The simple but true fact of life is that you become like those with whom
you closely associate for the good and the bad.
The less you associate with some people, the more your life will improve.
Any time you tolerate mediocrity in others, it increases your mediocrity.
An important attribute in successful people is their impatience with
negative thinking and negative acting people.
As you grow, your associates will change.
Some of your friends will not want you to go on.
They will want you to stay where they are.
Friends that don't help you climb will want you to crawl.
Your friends will stretch your vision or choke your dream.
Those that don't increase you will eventually decrease you.

Consider This:
Never receive counsel from unproductive people.
Never discuss your problems with someone incapable of contributing to the
solution, because those who never succeed themselves are always first to
tell you how.
Not everyone has a right to speak into your life.
You are certain to get the worst of the bargain when you exchange ideas
with the wrong person.
Don't follow anyone who's not going anywhere.
With some people you spend an evening: with others you invest it.
Be careful where you stop to inquire for directions along the road of life.
Wise is the person who fortifies his life with the right friendships.
If you see people without a smile today, give them one of yours.

Choose to rise...Don't settle, Dream Big!!!! And most of all let God lead
you in everything you do....

posted by Soulfull @ 1:48 PM , links to this post

Tom Cruise Shocks Oprah...

I love Oprah and I can bet she would find this video funny too...

posted by Soulfull @ 1:03 AM , links to this post

An Inconvenient Truth: But So Necessary

Frankly, I don't want to think about the world ending, lakes drying up, or nasty smog choking the last breath out of me, but there's no sense in that. Our children need some kind of clean earth to grow up in. Shoot, now I feel even worse about throwing my last few editions of the Sunday newspaper in the trash, but the first step to change is to admit your faults! As soon as I get a mommy/daddy break from the kids, I'm going to go see this movie AND start a nice pile for Wednesday's recycle truck...

Do Your Part - Smart Energy Solutions! Check out another funny video at Chicotown!

posted by Soulfull @ 4:14 PM , links to this post

Listen Up Anthony!

I'm not sure why or what has caused this sudden spike in Nigerian scam emails, but I've had it! By posting this email below in its unedited entirety, I am hoping to deter other unsuspecting folks from falling victim to the likes of these people, who prey on the goodness of folks. As heart wrenching as his story is, one can't let their emotions get their wallet in a situation that neither can handle. Like Mr. Oldenburg, I ask, who falls for this stuff???? Thank goodness for the delete button!

Dear Brethren in Christ,
My name is Anthony Moore and my father's name is Rev. Joseph J. Moore . I am from Mozambique, 20 years old of age and my father and mother have passed away. My father died on November 5th 2004 and was buried in my country mozambique. According to my father my mother died when she was giving birth to me from too much bleeding and I am the only child of my late parents.
After the death of my father I started to stay with my uncle Gilbert
who has been illtreating me and forced me to drop out from school. He has claimed almost all my late father's properties except his house. Just three weeks ago I managed to escape to Abidja Cote D'ivoire my maternal home where I am now.
Ever since I dropped out from school I have been having this dream of
entering a bible college, but there is no one by my side who could assist me both financially and otherwise.
There was some amount of money, US 2 million which my late father told me that he had with one finance company here at my maternal home Abidjan Cote D'ivoire which he said I should use to assist myself at any time I am through with my education, to brighten up my future. I was on the net this afternoon searching for some bible schools around your country and then saw your contact. My reason for sending you this message is to ask you if it would be possible for me to come over to your country at any time God permits, to start my study. I think there are good bible schools over there in your country where one could be well equipped in God's work. As my father was an anointed man of God before he died it would please God if I should start from where he ended. Assist an Orphan ! I don't want my life to be a waste.
I may have the money given to you so that you could use it for God's
work in your ministry until when I will be through with my study. As I know God will permit this. I can assist you in your Mninstry at any time I am through with my study. I do not want the devil to tempt me, so please help me out and let me not enter into the world and have this money misused. I think is by the special grace of God that I came across your contact this afternoon.
I came across some other contacts, but you are the only one I am writing to unless you are not in the position to help me I will write to another person. Please don't feel hesitant because of our differences in tribe and culture. We are one in Christ. The colour of my blood is red and yours is red also, and this indicates the blood of the Lamb (Our Lord Jesus Christ)
that was shed on the cross of calvary that made you and I one in the

If I hear from you I will go to the finance company and make arrangement to send the money to you before I will start any arrangement to come over to your country at any time you may advise.
God bless you for your help.
Anthony Moore

The Facts on Fraud

posted by Soulfull @ 3:26 PM , links to this post

Smoking Weed in Public?

Then you need to read Mark's blog post: SMOKING WEED IN FRONT OF KIDS MUST BE ALRIGHT WITH BLACK (SOME FOLK) Gosh, this is another example of the beauty of blogging - being able to voice your opinion to the masses! Living in the metro area, I totally understand where he's coming from...

posted by Soulfull @ 2:14 PM , links to this post

Here Comes The Rain Again...

The Headline Reads: Record Rain Wreaks Havoc on Morning Commute

Will it ever stop raining!? Geez, I'm glad that the environment is being nourished by all these healthy drops, but my goodness... The up side of it all is that it puts me in the right mind for doing some blogging and with a little good music, I could go all day! LOL! Speaking of music, I dedicate this post to all those healthy drops pounding over my head...

posted by Soulfull @ 1:06 PM , links to this post

Eat Up! Buffett Gives Millions Away To Charity

The Headline Reads: Gates Foundation to Get Bulk of Buffett's Fortune

In a letter to Mr. and Mrs. William H. Gates III of the Bill and Melinda Gates Foundation, Mr. Buffett pledges "to make annual gifts of Berkshire Hathaway “B” shares throughout my lifetime for the benefit of BMG. The first year’s gift will permit an increase in BMG’s annual giving of about $1.5 billion. In the future, I expect the value of my annual gifts to trend higher in an irregular but eventually substantial manner."

In their response, Bill and Melinda said this: “We are awed by our friend Warren Buffett’s decision to use his fortune to address the world's most challenging inequities, and we are humbled that he has chosen to direct a large portion of it to the Bill & Melinda Gates Foundation."

Gosh, could it get any better than this?

posted by Soulfull @ 12:43 PM , links to this post

What can I accomplish today?

Thanks to Freddye Carter, this question now begs for an answer in my mind right now... What can I accomplish today? What can I accomplish today? What can I accomplish today? Procrastination has the power to hold anyone back from achieving their rightful place in this world, but there's value inside of this question that if answered, could enrich your daily existence like never before. Be it big or small, we all can find a few things to do everyday to beat that procastination and feel more satisfied in the end. So, what can you accomplish today?

posted by Soulfull @ 11:18 AM , links to this post


I had to share this... LMAO!!

posted by Soulfull @ 7:00 PM , links to this post

I Just Found Out....

Going through my emails, and I received one from, stating that Aaron Spelling passed. Quite sad! I must say, I have watched just about every TV show he has ever done. So as I'm reading the story, I learn that Charles Smith from Kool & The Gang passed on June 18! What in the world? I didn't even know.... :( One of my fondest memories as a child is watching my dad dance around to the hits Charles has helped to produce. Both of these gentlemen will definitely be missed. God Bless!


Aaron Spelling, one of television's most prolific and commercially successful independent producers, died Friday at his mansion in Los Angeles after suffering a stroke on June 18. He was 83.

With an uncanny knack for programming for younger audiences, Spelling was responsible for some of the most successful TV series of all time, including "The Mod Squad," "Starsky and Hutch," "Charlie's Angels," "The Love Boat," "Fantasy Island," "Dynasty" and "Beverly Hills, 90210."

Like Fred Silverman, the executive he worked closely with at ABC, Spelling was revered by some for his natural ability to predict what the country wanted to see and criticized by others for appealing to the lowest common denominator. Like it or not, Spelling's primetime fantasies helped shape television programming for more than four decades.

Spelling's other hit series included "Melrose Place," "Burke's Law," "T.J. Hooker," "Matt Houston," "Hart to Hart" and "Hotel." He kept his hand in 21st-century TV with series including "7th Heaven" and "Summerland." [Source]

Charles Smith
Co-founder, lead guitarist of Kool & the Gang

Claydes Charles Smith, a co-founder and lead guitarist of the group Kool & the Gang, died June 18 in Maplewood, N.J., after a long illness. He was 57.

Kool & the Gang grew from jazz roots in the 1960s to become a popular musical group of the 1970s, blending jazz, funk, R&B and pop. After a downturn, the group enjoyed a return to success in the '80s. Smith, who was known as Charles Smith, wrote the hits "Joanna" and "Take My Heart," and was a co-writer of others, including "Celebration," "Hollywood Swinging" and "Jungle Boogie."

Born in Jersey City, N.J., Smith was introduced to jazz guitar by his father in the early 1960s. Later that decade he was in a group of New Jersey jazz musicians -- including Ronald Bell, Robert "Kool" Bell, George Brown, Dennis Thomas and Robert "Spike" Mickens -- who became Kool & the Gang. Other members would include lead singer James "J.T." Taylor. Illness forced Smith to stop touring with the group in January.

He is survived by six children and nine grandchildren. [Source]

TWP Article on Aaron Spelling CNN story on Charles Smith

posted by Soulfull @ 1:50 AM , links to this post

Have A "Safe" Weekend....

Sing along with me if you know the words....
Just got paid, Friday night
Party huntin', feelin' right
Body shakin', all around (Body shakin' all around)
No one thinks when I'm gettin' down

We all know Friday nights are notorious for hanging out and having fun, but before you hop behind that shakin' body, let this commerical remind you of the importance of playing it safe.

posted by Soulfull @ 10:00 PM , links to this post

Biggie Smalls Debuts As Action Figure

Watching BET 106&Park and they dropped this little tidbit that Notorious B.I.G would soon be an action figure. Um, so you know I had to check out what it is this "action figure" would possibly look like. Low and behold, Mezco Toyz (if they are the right company??) will be producing the above "toy", which is slated for a November 2006 arrival. Damn, I can't really put my finger on it, but I'm not really liking the way they have B.I.G looking... At any rate, with these things costing $21.99 a pop, I sincerely hope the family is benefiting from this!

posted by Soulfull @ 6:45 PM , links to this post

This Shit Is For The Birds...

So I'm back and I'm feeling so unmotivated today. I've been going through some issues that you wouldn't believe, but I can't seem to express the way I feel. I just hear bits and pieces of songs running through my mind, making me feel as though these words are mine, but they're not. At this point, I've got to pull back and take account of the damages, but there's no time. Even as I type this I feel the tick tock of the clock reminding me that July 3rd is approaching. In my "sleep-deprived-driving-all-night-to-get-back-home-from-Georgia" stupor, I found out yesterday that the surgery that I've been waiting on since God knows how long is finally here. Damn. I can't stop my mind from wandering into the world of what ifs... Yet, I feel calm about it. I look at the programs from my grandmother and great uncle's funeral and somehow they help me pull it together. I owe so much to all the previous generations of elders who helped to create the world I live today and for better or worse, it is my world, ripe for the new beginnings. The question is how will this new chapter in my life read?

posted by Soulfull @ 11:57 PM , links to this post


Dear Friend,

Despite a peace agreement between the Sudanese government and the largest Darfur rebel group, the violence continues. The starvation, torture, mutilation, and massacre of men, women and children go on. And the death toll climbs.

We must continue to act.

That is why we are calling on President Bush to push for a UN peacekeeping force in Darfur. It is the only way to ensure protection for Darfur's innocent victims!

Last month, President Bush personally aided in brokering the peace agreement. This was an important first step. Yet with hundreds of thousands in Darfur already dead, millions more displaced and many at risk every day, we must continue to press for a solution.

That is why we are asking President Bush to press for a UN peacekeeping force to be on the ground in Darfur no later than October. We cannot wait any longer!

Join us in asking President Bush:
**To push for a UN force for Darfur;
**To strengthen African Union troops already in Darfur until the UN arrives;
**To continue supporting humanitarian assistance programs in Darfur; and
**To appoint a special envoy to coordinate US policy in the region.

Click this link to email President Bush today.

Thank you for your support.

posted by Soulfull @ 4:08 PM , links to this post

There's Just Something About...

What Happened To South of the Border?
There's Just Something About...,
originally uploaded by Soulfull.
There's just something about the way the night changes into day, but I have no time to enjoy it for we're on the road again. Yesterday sho was a bit challenging. I mean, what's a trip without being late in this family!? We dashed down I-95 towards Petersburg, VA to the funeral of my Great Uncle and I just couldn't believe that we were late! We made it none the less but it pissed me off that my parents wanted to pick this day, of all days, to start beefing....

So here I sit contemplating what it is about being 'down south'. The sun seems to shine so much brighter, the people are more receptive to conversations, and definitely vocal about their beliefs. In fact, I've seen so many opinated billboards promoting a stop in abortions, stopping the killing of animals for fur, and you better not forget to buy your fireworks... My goodness... I'm quite happy that I remembered the Ipod and that our rental car has a built-in DVD player which has helped to pass the time away as we fly through Sorth Carolina...It's amazing how many times children can watch Shark Tales or Chicken Little and actually like it! Outside, the scenery is so bleak. Weigh stations, farm land, rest stops, and patches of houses here and there. I'm butt ass tired man. Just took my pain killers for my tired and overworked back, but you know, what has happened to South of the Border? I remember as a child craving to step foot on Hot Tomala land, but as we passed through looking for some grub, everything looked like a scene out of a horror flick. Damn, it seems that all good things do have an ending or maybe not an ending, but a breaking point when things just can't stay the same. Oh well, onto my favorite grub joint... BURGER KING, where the burger is king and I can have it any way I want it...

posted by Soulfull @ 1:42 PM , links to this post

I Need This Blog More Than Ever...

It's late. I've just finished packing the stuff for my kids and I. I'm bummed for two reasons... 1. My husband can't go with us and 2. My husband and I just had a fight because he can't go. Experiencing death is already hard and painful, but to experience it without the support of your partner makes it ten times harder. Yet, I'm trying to keep my spirits up for the kids. They think its all just a road trip that will lead to a dip in the pool at a hotel in the peachtree state. I'm inclined to allow them to have this moment because the passing of my loved ones will be marked with celebration not tears..well... maybe a few tears...

posted by Soulfull @ 2:17 AM , links to this post

100 Soulfull Things About Me.....

For what it's worth, I find that this post will enlighten as well as entertain and if it doesn't then, oh well, I had fun doing it-LOL! So I present to you 100 things you probably didn't know (or want to know-LOL) about me....

1. I hate fake people. You know the ones, they smile in your face, all the while they wanna take your place... Those nasty backstabbers.
2. I love to travel.
3. I'm addicted to Orlando, FL and all things Disney!
4. I lost my virginity at 18 to my husband.
5. I've only had two sex partners.
6. I'm anemic.
7. Just like Oprah, I'm an Aquarius and proud of it!
8. I share the same birthdate and year as Brandy.
9. I share the same birth year as Aaliyah.
10. I hate rollercoasters.
11. I love to drive really fast.
12. As a child, my favorite thing to do was play office with my sister. Of course I had to be the boss.
13. I am quite bossy at times.
14. I'm a closet shy person which people almost always mistake as being snobby.
15. I've only owned 2 cars.
16. I secretly think I should've been born a dude because I have some serious dude tendencies.
17. I can't swim worth a lick.
18. I hate boats. Refer to #17.
19. Sandwich between two crazy sisters, I am the middle child.
20. In my lifetime, I've had about eight surgeries due to my cleft palate.
21. I love spongebob squarepants.
22. I like porn.
23. When I go out to eat, I sometimes save my leftovers for the homeless.
24. I'm glad I had two sons as I enjoy being the only girl in the house.
25. I miss my grandparents.
26. I don't know much about my relatives.
27. I was accepted to be an exchange student to Germany but my mother wouldn't let me go.
28. I was accepted into Bowie State, but didn't go because my mother said we couldn't afford it.
29. I sometimes resent my mom for #27 & #28.
30. I can really sing.
31. I'm a music junkie.
32. I enjoyed the movie Glitter with Mariah Carey.
33. I have two tattoos.
34. I want to be rich.
35. I love designer bags.
36. I've tried almost every get rich quick at home scheme there is-none work.
37. I'm tired of being the "go-to-girl" in my family.
38. I wish I would have gone out more as a single woman.
39. I regularly donate money to charity.
40. I love to google myself (Soulfull).
41. I was voted most likely to succeed by my HS class.
42. I love the Rich Dad, Poor Dad book series.
43. I enjoy surrounding myself with fake plants.
44. Occasionally, I have panic attacks.
45. I've yet to have a friend that I know I can really trust with everything.
46. My husband is my best friend.
47. At one point in my life, I wanted to be a teacher.
48. When I met my husband at 15, I knew he was going to be my husband.
49. I love poetry.
50. I'm destined for greatness.
51. I believe everyone has a true talent waiting to be cultivated.
52. Everything I learned about computers was self-taught.
53. I'm starting to not give a fuck what people think. It took me a long time to get here.
54. I am a self-proclaimed neat freak.
55. I hate doing laundry.
56. I dislike large crowds.
57. The cartoon character that I am most like is Chicken Little.
58. I'm a nerd.
59. I believe success is Sincerely Understanding Christ Considers Every Step Special.
60. I pray for my enemies.
61. I often paint my fingernails while driving.
63. I often take photos while driving.
64. By the grace of God, I've yet to receive a speeding ticket.
65. I hope to one day have a house large enough to dedicate one room to my book and CD collections.
66. When I'm nervous, I scratch the inside of my nose.
67. I've kept a journal since I was 12.
68. I collect snowglobes and shot glasses from the places I visit.
69. One of my goals is to travel the world.
70. I enjoy asking questions of my Magic 8 Ball.
71. I was the editor of my HS newspaper.
72. I was the editor of my HS yearbook.
73. My mother's mental illness is starting to drive me crazy.
74. In the tenth grade, I was voted the Student of the Year.
75. I enjoy learning about the struggles of black people. It fills me with pride.
76. I still believe George Bush cheated to win the last two presidential elections.
77. Lately I've been singing this little ditty over and over again: If you wanna be somebody, if you wanna go somewhere, YOU BETTA WAKE UP AND PAY ATTENTION! (Betcha, you can't guess what movie that's from?)
78. I don't want to move to Florida just yet because Jeb is the governor.
79. I was born at 4:44pm, so everyday at this time, I reflect on my life.
80. I often only receive 5 hours of sleep a day.
81. I love taking photos.
82. I love to write.
88. I was once told I could be a hand model.
89. I've started wearing a girdle around the house so I can get back into my size 4 jeans.
90. I absolutely HATE to owe anyone anything.
91. I quit my old job to be a full-time writer and stay at home mom.
92. I'm going back to my old job sometime soon because I dislike not having my own money.
93. I enjoy being connected to folks on MySpace.
94. I'm a nympho who believes it's best for all nymphos to find and marry another nympho.
95. I believe it's okay to whine or complain, but you have to be willing to do something about it!
96. Ultimately, I want a career in the arts & entertainment industry.
97. I'm competitive and will make a sport out of anything.
98. I started blogging because I found it hard to share or talk about myself. Refer to #14.
99. I really want to buy a second home in Los Angeles.
100. My grandfather's brother passed away today and because of it, I'm even more determined to make my dreams a reality.

posted by Soulfull @ 11:18 PM , links to this post

So Much I Wanna Say....

I am so mad right now. I can't really feel too excited about my shoutout in the Wonkette because a piece of my heart passed away today. Sweet Charlie Bell died today, my precious great great grandmother, but these feelings that I feel aren't of saddness. As a matter of fact, I AM PISSED! Simply enraged by the fact that the leaves of my family tree are spread all over this world and I have no means or way to rake us all back together. Losing my grandfather was really rough and now my special lady... Boy, was she something else... So strong... So determined... Coming from nothing, she helped my mom to make it out of the rural south of Georgia, to make sure her granddaughter became something more than the bastard child of a nameless father! Wow, I feel like shit, for real, yet I'm happy that she saw all of us last year, even got to meet her great great grandsons, but what does it all mean??? Well, for starters, I know that tomorrow is NOT PROMISED and 2006 is surely gonna be about my soulfull revolution... just wait and fucking see...

posted by Soulfull @ 11:31 PM , links to this post

A File From The Crazy Photos Dept.....

As much as I love creativity, I am often baffled by the emails I receive from my friends and family. I mean, just exactly where do these photos generate from and what would the folks in them think if they knew someone had played them out over the internet? Well at any rate, look for me to periodically post a few of these photo emails I receive and naturally, all faces will be smudged to protect the innocent, but, I'm sure the marketing execs for Kool-Aid are proud...

posted by Soulfull @ 2:07 PM , links to this post

Insurgent Leader Al-Zarqawi Killed in Iraq: WHAT DOES THIS MEAN?

The Headline Reads: Insurgent Leader Al-Zarqawi Killed in Iraq

Well, well, well, I just heard the news about this and the first question that comes to mind is this: WHAT DOES THIS MEAN? Will our troops start coming home? Will wives get to see their husbands? Will parents be reunited with their children?

His killing is the most significant public triumph for the U.S.-led coalition since the 2003 capture of Saddam Hussein, although analysts warned that Zarqawi's killing would not stem the tide of insurgency and violence in Iraq any more than Hussein's capture did.

Underscoring that warning, an explosion ripped through a busy outdoor market in Baghdad just a few hours after Zarqawi's killing was announced. The blast, in a predominantly Shiite neighborhood, killed at least 19 people and wounded more than 40, the Associated Press reported.

"Today Zarqawi was defeated," said Prime Minister Nouri al-Maliki, appearing at a midday news conference with U.S. Ambassador Zalmay Khalilzad and Gen. George W. Casey, the top U.S. military commander in Iraq. "This is a message to all those who use violence killing and devastation to disrupt life in Iraq to rethink within themselves before it is too late," Maliki added.

Well, this war has brought nothing but death upon death and I find that it will only continue if we don't find another strategy, whatever that may be. My vote is to withdraw now, but whatever the outcome, I pray for our sisters and brothers in Iraq as well as our soliders.

posted by Soulfull @ 10:23 AM , links to this post

It Doesn't Have To Be This Way...

I've been on my grind for a few days now, trying to work through this special feature on Black Music Month and things are going great. Soulful Synergy received some great exposure from and I received some exposure from, so I'm really excited for the future and a big welcome to any new readers that might be reading me from AOL! But at any rate, things are changing all around me and I find myself changing with them, yet I can't help asking myself - Where's the balance?

Let's see I spent part of the day schooling my sons, playing with them, then I wrote a bit, networked on myspace, and worked on some papers for school while the kids napped, and then it was back to playing with the kids when they woke up. Geez, did I neglect to mention hounding the docs at Children's, who have YET to schedule my bone graft surgery? Yeah, things are batty, batty, batty (betcha don't know what movie that's from, LOL)...My question to you guys is this - what do you do when you feel the walls closing in and you're drowning in a sea of ink and paper? How do you come up for air? Let me know, because ya girl is slipping... I'm heading over to my other blog to relieve some tension...

posted by Soulfull @ 10:29 PM , links to this post

Can It Get Any Worse

I HATE being late. Period. I find it extremely rude and annoying to be the last to roll into an event or meeting. Today only proved to be another example of why I don't like unorganized events or people. Yet rather than point any fingers at folks, I want to ask this question: Why or how did I become so fortunate to have so many overbearing women in my life? You think the good Lord above would have stopped with my own mom, but no, it seems for me, that everybody wants to be my mother or tell me what to do or how to raise my boys. I mean, if any help is needed I will be the first one to ask for it, but otherwise - Shut Up! It's hard enough to discipline two active and growing boys without the conflicting viewpoints of the overbearing and yes it takes a village to raise a child, but sometimes the village needs to close their doors and leave the parenting to the parents... Damn it!

posted by Soulfull @ 8:39 PM , links to this post

It's Getting Hot In Herre

The Constant Gardener
Originally uploaded by ChocolateBoyWunda.
Okay! While managing my other online addiction,, I came across this lovely photo. There's not much I can say about it, but it sure does make me want to go tend to my own little garden....

Seriously, this photo brought to mind previous discussions I've had with a few friends and my hubby about whether or not, it's okay to look at "eye candy" when you're in a relationship. Now, it took me a LONG time to come to the decision that it IS okay to be attracted to others. I used to get so upset over the calendars my husband has with the sportbikes and half-naked girls hanging over them and I can't front, his recent trip to Black Bike Week didn't make me feel any better, especially with all the butt that's always hanging out down there...

But I'm getting older and like my girlfriend J said, it's just not worth the energy to be worried about "eye candy". And as my old adage goes - You can look, you can flirt, but you betta not touch, unless you want your nuts hurt! LMAO... ;-)

posted by Soulfull @ 3:55 PM , links to this post

Music Makes The People Come Together...

From the hundreds of CDs spilling out of boxes in my closet, to my overloaded Ipod and the addiction to Rhapsody online, Lord knows, I am a music FREAK! So naturally when I found out that this month was Black Music month, my thoughts raced with all the tunes I wanted to dust off and upload to my computer collection. The weather here has been amazing and what better way to compliment a nice drink on the deck, then a smooth groove from Sade or a uptempo number by Madonna? Shoot, I make up excuses to wash my car just so I can blast my tunes while waxing it back to its' showroom shine. Yeah, I am a real nut, but I am a equal opportunity nut and I try to spread it around to all of my favorite singers, rappers, and bands.

So why all this talk of music, you ask? Well, it's because I am excited to be apart of The Adventures of Mimi concert this September at the Verizon Center in DC! Now, anyone that knows me will tell you that I've been a BIG supporter of Mariah Carey, since her fizzy-fluff hair days.

Mariah THENMariah NOW

and Ms. Mimi has seen me through some rough spots throughout my life! Watching her transform into the woman that SHE wants to be has only inspired me to be all that I want to be. Okay, why does that sound like an army commerical, but anyway, you guys get the idea! Having this feeling of excitement is helping to take some of my nervousness of surgery away. Speaking of surgery, I've been going back and forth between Washington Hosptial Center and Children's Hospital, trying to meet all of my doctors and schedule a date. I've been really bummed out a couple of times and finding out that the person who schedules surgeries is on vacation made it no better! UGH! But hell, it's cool, the sun is shining, the birds are chirping, and I got my lover Music to keep me smiling...

posted by Soulfull @ 11:58 AM , links to this post